Touch my heart! YuRi GaGaRiN

Thanks!

to my dear

Father

He is no more with me in physical form but his influence is always in my thought and actions. He is a great soul and I am not saying this because he is my father! He is a thinker, a honest teacher, a hardworking farmer and more than that a Gandhian with Marxist idealogy. He never contradicted with his speeches and actions. Though I have lost him in an accident (I was present at that time), I will be thankful to him eternally.

Mother

She is my living God, a personification of motherhood. She was with me in testing times, when no one was ready. She has to sacrifice a lot (and still sacrificing a lot!) due to my 'Experiments and Spiritual Journeys'. If I will be having an another life I will ask God, only one thing, 'Just give me my same mother and father in my next birth!'. She faced many hardship without tears to bring me up and supported my education, till I complete my Masters in Business Administration. Thank you Amma!

Gurus. (teachers)

We are all moulded by our teachers. It is a long list, starting from my Grandma (she is my first teacher), Mrs.Nakshathiram (meaning 'star'), my first standard teacher, Mr.Karu Kuppusamy (A devotee of Lord Iyappa and my 4th class teacher, who loved me personally), Mr.Sundara Vadivan (My Tamil Teacher and a qualified painter, who taught me the Beauty of Tamil, the oldest, still surviving, mass speaking language), Head Master Mr. Kaleel Ahmed (Keeranur Government Higher Secondary School, who loved me personaly), Mr.Sudandhiram (my Physics teacher at Gandhigram, who gave me the laboratory key whenever I had asked), Mrs.Vasuki (Zoology, who watched me all the time,due to some wrong information... that I would do copying in my exams!), and to Mr.Venugopala Krishnan (an auditor by profession, my maternal uncle who taught me whatever he knows).

Apart from these teachers I am fortunate enough to have (moved with) many spiritual teachers in my search. The first person who taught me the Bhakthi at my tender age of 5 is 'Nataka Vaathiyar' (I could not recall his real name) from the village Poolampatty. He used to take me to Markazhi Bhajans (Winter worships by going round the village). Then comes my grand father Mr.Petchiappan, a devotee of Lord Muruga, who used to climb the Palani Hills every day till his eighties. In the British Raj, he worked as a honest Sanitary Inspector and after his retirement he joined as a Correspondent for the English Magazine, 'THE MAIL'. He visited and met many mystics in his journeys and used to tell me his 'experiences'. Then comes Brahmachari Sri Bhadra Das, an interesting ISKCON devotee (He drowned in River Ganges while taking bath with his spiritual master) who introduced me to Vedas and Puranas, Swami Rathish Das (another devotee who loved me a lot), Sarvaiswarya Das (President, ISKCON Coimbatore, who always recognise me even when I visited after a gap of 5 years!) and

Mohan Bharathi of Trichy who initiated me on behalf of OSHO. (After the sannyas initiation I got my 'New Name' Swami Jivan Apthakam). Another important person is 'Raja Swami' of Nagerkoil, a 'tinker' by work, a strong and realised follower of Vallalar. He used to earn some money in his workshop in the morning and usally distributs it to many needy people by Annadhanam etc. (One interesting aspect is he along with some friends used to go to one Mosque in Thakkalai, a small town in the Kerala Border, for their worship and the muslims in that centre are giving more respect to this Hindu swamis!)

"A critical mind is an absolute necessity if you are working on a scientific project. But the critical mind is an absolute barrier if you are trying to reach your own interiority, subjectivity. With the objective world it is perfectly okay. Without it there is no science; with it there is no religion. This has to be understood: when one is working objectively one has to be capable of using it, and when one is working subjectively one has to be capable of putting it aside. It should be used as a means. It should not become an idee fixe; you should be able to use it or not, you should be free. There is no possibility of going into the inner world with a critical mind. Doubt is a barrier, just as trust is a barrier in science. A man of trust will not go very far in science, cannot go at all. That's why in the days when religion was predominant in the world it remained unscientific. It is in only three hundred years that science progressed. For near about five thousands years there was no science. Religion was so predominant that people were accustomed to trusting. And the conflict that arose between the church and science was not accidental; it was very fundamental. It was not really a conflict between science and religion; it was a conflict between two different dimensions of being: the objective and the subjective" # OSHO